A Different Kind of Wait

So, we got Carmen’s 2-month pictures and her DNA results.  What more could we ask for, right?  Well, nothing really.  So weren’t we totally surprised when we received her 3-month photos AND medical update this past Monday?!  As one would expect, our dear sweet Carmen is quite healthy and is doing well!  She gained 3.7 lbs and grew 3 cm in just over a month!  Her pictures were AWESOME!  She showed us her beautiful smile and we also saw evidence that she received her first “Ziplock of Love”!

So, I bet you are wondering what we could possibly be waiting for now, right?  Well, let’s see…1) we don’t REALLY know if the interview with Carmen’s birthmom actually took place the same day as the DNA test; 2) we don’t REALLY know if we even entered Family Court yet; 3) we have about a 60-day wait for “Pre-Approval”; 4) we must wait to enter ”PGN”; 5) we must wait to EXIT “PGN”; 6) we’re STILL waiting for that video; etc., etc., etc.

But, while there might seem to be no end in sight for all the steps listed above I really can’t say that I care.  You see, with notarization of her DNA results we officially have the OK to go visit our daughter!  And there’s NO holding us back!  We’ve got the date set, the flights and hotel room booked, and a list started of what we need to take.  We put ourselves on the list to return the favor that 2 other families did for us…deliver Ziplocks of Love…and already we have 4 families planning to send us Ziplocks for their babies!

As I write so often, words cannot express the joy and excitement BH and I are experiencing!  And we feel so honored to share that joy and excitement with our dear friend (Sie), who will be accompanying us on the journey to see our daughter for the first time!  I am sure that I will shed an enormous amount of tears (judging by my reaction to receiving DNA results I can guarantee this won’t be pretty) and I cannot think of 2 people I would rather have by my side during such a moment than BH and Sie!  Both were with me during the other most emotional time in my life and both will be with me on this very special day!  What a blessing that God has placed both of them in my life!

So you see…it IS a different kind of wait!  One that will not last long and I KNOW will come to an end!  I WILL see my daughter and hold her!  I WILL kiss her cheeks and her toes and her nose and her eyes!  I WILL sing to her and read to her and rock with her!  I WILL listen to her as she falls asleep next to me!  I WILL hold her when she cries!  I WILL feed her and bathe her and dress her and swim with her!  I WILL, I WILL, I WILL…..

~ by shoolady on July 20, 2007.